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Promise: There is a light at the end of the tunnel


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KEVORK DJANSEZIAN/ASSOCIATED PRESS
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Date published: 8/19/2014

I've written this letter in light of Robin Williams' death.

To all of you who suffer from depression, anxiety and mental illness: Suicide has claimed another of us.

To the rest of us who still live, fight for yourself. Be good to yourself. Stay alive. Fight the daily battle with baby steps.

Personally, I feel like a suicide survivor. I craved it with the essence of my being, for death to take away this bad wrong inside me that no one else could comprehend.

I chose, somehow, to stay alive and pray for God's will to take me. He did not. So I didn't, either.

And now, through many years of every day taking baby steps to further my coping skills, miraculously, I am able to live a happy, healthy life. Free to be.

You may always carry the diagnosis of mental illness, but you can be a survivor, too.

God knew what the future held. I did not then, I was guessing. Then, in the throes of my battle, I did not see. But I chose God's will over my own. I promise, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You may not see it now, but there is!

And I want you to have the same chance as I did--to look back and say, "Wow, it was bad, but I survived."

Jill Crawford

Spotsylvania